I can’t wait to see you but I’ve changed.
My husband says, “I haven’t changed
But you have.”
“Of course I say, that’s how life is; change is the only thing there is”.
He shoots me a stare, a snarl and a shake of his head,
I look at him in disbelief.
Neither are right or wrong but change is inevitable; and he is right;
They say woman marry men, hoping they’ll change,
And men marry women, hoping they’ll never change.
Is it that woman went along more, when love was new?
Or is it that they finally found their voice and speak up more as they bloom?
I’ve always spoken my truth but was always busy pleasing others, never asking questions.
That’s what mothers, daughters and wives do.
Put off me to be there for you.
He loves watching sports (any sport on T.V.) or on the radio,
However, I could care less.
I would rather listen to quiet music, meditate, hike and write.
Men are easy; Give them a sandwich and sex and they’ll follow you anywhere.
Women want to talk.
Just ask my son. His first sentence was “Mom too many words”
I’ve done it all from work to birthing babies, having umpteen pets, traveled with the 6 of us all over the world, hosted lavish parties with all the decorations. Cooked great food and concocted amazing drinks and now I’m content to sit in the void while those spin around me.
I’ve changed, it’s true.
I love my peace and quiet.
Clean floors don’t interest me much, nor does shopping for material objects or having meaningless conversations.
Don’t get me wrong,
I love a clean house and delicious food, and drink,
I just don’t want to execute and do it anymore.
And you should know, so when you come home to visit, you’re not disappointed when your Christmas stockings are empty and there aren’t many boxes and I’m not cooking up a storm.
You’ll find me early in the morning in the moonlight writing, quiet as a mouse, dancing or singing and ready to play a game, take a hike or jump on the bike.
I’ve changed so I hope you enjoy the memory of the mother, friend, daughter, wife that you once knew and can appreciate who I am now. If you can’t, I understand.
I love you all no matter what, but it’s important you know;
And I’ll keep changing and so will you.
Maybe the mother you once knew will reemerge like the butterfly from the cocoon,
But who knows, I’ve changed.
Nothing is set in stone.
Besides, the best gift is time spent and memories made and shared, not material gifts.
This was writen before I experienced the complete shift with my adult children coming home for Thanksgiving in a way that I have never seen before. I suppose all of my warnings have paid off. As they are starting to pile in for the holidays, it is always a gift to my heart. Have a beautiful day.
Thanks so much for visiting today and hope you enjoyed this and gave you permission to listen to your inner voice.
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