Happy Monday Everyone,
I woke up 3 nights ago in the middle of the night to a memory of Alice, a dear client/friend that has been gone for 12 years now. She lives forever in my heart. She was such an amazing lady and I am so grateful to her daughter in law, one of my dearest friends and her son for the gift of hiring me to work with her. She was a force to be reckoned with and I am so honored to have shared so many special years of her life.
The below is a true story.
Every time I hear the chimes on my phone, I see your face.
They rang everyday at the same time and was your reminder to take your medication. Towards the end when life became such a struggle, I would turn to you and say “It’s God calling are you ready to go”? You would smile and say “I’m getting there” and you didn’t even believe in God!
You were so winded but day after day we walked and you made good improvements but with COPD, it became a losing battle. As we climbed the hill, you were slower and we had to stop more often to rest.
Watching your decline was hard and I so wanted to let you off the hook, but onward we trudged. The chimes would go off and I would say “It’s God calling are you ready to go”? and we would chuckle. As the stairs got too much and the hill too steep to climb, we would just walk on flat land. The chimes would ring and I would say “It’s God calling are you ready to go”? This time you would answer “Jesus, Joseph and Mary, yes”. But still we walked. Our walks turned into circles in the house and you commanded me to sit.
I’ll never forget bringing Ram Dass’s book, “Still Here” and reading it to you and your beautiful face full of lines and expression and childlike wonder, would light up. Sometimes we would walk a little and as time progressed it went from sitting with you to lying in your bed and reading Ram Dass’s book, and we would talk about death and dying and what it all meant. When the chimes would ring I would say “It’s God calling are you ready to go”? You would say “Hell yes, but keep reading”. Sometimes I was able to say “well it’s not time yet and I’m going to get fired if we don’t get up and one of your kids sees me lying in bed with you”. We would laugh and cackle like school girls getting away with something. You asked me to order that book for you and you read it everyday when you were by yourself. I was so impressed because here you were at 86 opening to new ways of thinking which you would have never entertained in your lifetime before.
We took our sessions to the bed but I was still able to drag you out to move a little most days. One day the chimes went off and I said my usual “It’s God calling are you ready to go”? and you said “I’m so ready” and I too knew the days were drawing close. I tried to help you up but so wanted to just let you stay in bed because it took all of your effort to get up, but I knew if you were around longer, you needed to be strong for your daily activities, so I helped you up. You sat at the edge of the bed, looked me in the eyes and said “thank you for everything, I could never have done it without you. You were here for my every need”. The room stood still, tears ran down my face, my heart burst open with happiness and sadness all at once.
When I left that day, I wanted to bake you a cheesecake; The same one you gave me the recipe for and baked for me, but I was too busy that day, so I bought one instead and brought it with me the next day when I arrived. You had stopped eating now because it was too much effort. I told you to stick out your tongue and close your eyes and I put a drop of cheesecake on your tongue because it was your favorite. I actually lied and said I baked it for you and you shook your head and puckered up your face and said “no, this isn’t my cheesecake”. We laughed but I felt so bad because I wanted to give you something sweet that you had given me in your last days but it seemed my presence of just laying with you, reading and stroking your head softly was the sweetness you actually needed. I knew the end was near and I planned to spend the night with you and sleep in your bed but with 4 kids and a full client load to see, I fell asleep at home and never made it.
In the morning when I returned, I came into the house and I heard your phone ringing and you were in bed. I said, “It’s God calling are you ready to go”?
But you didn’t answer; you had already gone.
I layed with you one last time and held you while I sobbed.
And now when I hear the chimes I set on my phone everyday, I think of you and the memories we shared. I’m not ready to go yet but you’re the first one I want to see when God calls me.
(my dear friend, Alices Daughter in law actually called me in the morning to let me know she had made her transition and then I went over for my final closure). I am forever grateful for that call.
Copyright © Cindy GeorgakasAll Rights Reserved
If you don’t know Ram Dass, he was formerly known as Richard Alpert and was a Harvard Professor and psychologist who explored LSD and other hallucinogens Timothy Leary, a colleague. He traveled off to India and studied with Neem Karoli Baba (Hindi: नीम करौली बाबा) or Neeb Karori Baba (Hindi: नीब करौरी बाबा) (c. 1900 – 11 September 1973), known to his followers as Maharaj ji, was his Hindu guru and a devotee of the Hindu deity Hanuman.
Ram Dass, also known as Baba Ram Dass, an American spiritual teacher, psychologist, and author. He was given his name by his Guru. His best known book, “Be Here Now”, has been described as “seminal”, and helped popularize Eastern spirituality and yoga with the baby boomer generation in the West. Wikipedia
Born: April 6, 1931, Boston, MA
Died: December 22, 2019, Maui, HI
Full name: Richard Alpert
Be Here Now was one of the first books I remember reading on my spiritual path which one of the first of it’s kind and quite profound.
Still Here came after his stroke which is a story about dealing with loss of function and the challenge of now needing others to help him in the way he helped others. He also discovered his core root was still the same through his stroke and lived in grace.
Thanks for visiting today. Remember you are stronger than you know, blessed beyond measure and more sacred with every passing day. Life is a short journey, make everyday count as you never know when you will take your last breath. Reach out and touch someone.
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Awwww Cindy 💟💟💟 I don’t have any words to describe!!!! This made me emotional!!! You are so strong 💟💟💟
God bless you always
Oh Vani, I hope the emotions are cleansing and you can hug someone (or fist bump 👊 🤣) someone you love today and feel comforted.
Thanks for the love, your read and kind words always! 💖💖💖
This is very painful to read Cindy. 😞😞 It’s good that you both have had some precious time together ❤️❤️. Thanks for sharing this today dear Cindy. It brings back the good old memories of my late friend. Isn’t that true that we need to meet them first when God calls us home?!
Thanks you Dear Preethes! Time is all we have you’re right and I do feel so blessed for the time I had with her. I’m so happy to hear it brought you such wonderful memories of your dear late friend. I think for me the memory is etched in my heart and home is in the existence of the love and comfort in my soul. Hugs and love today and thank you as always for being such a great support! 💖🌷🙏
Tender power Cindy and I’m a long time fan of Ram Dass…sending you joy for a beautiful day ~ hugs hedy 🤗❣️💫
Glad you enjoyed it Hedy! I guessed you would know of Ram Dass as well through your powerful writings and pictures. Thanks for sharing your kindness always and to you.. love and hugs. ❤️🤗
Oh my god, i just loved each and every line you wrote cindy💖💖 could not stop my tears 😑😑 so heart touching… I pray for her soul to rest in peace💖💖 its really biggest loss to loose someone nearer or close to heart…😒 Take care dear💖🤗
Oh Soni, I’m so glad it had meaning for you and it touched you so deeply! You are a heartful soul and powerful woman. It truly is hard but the gifts of joy left in our hearts are carried forever as beacons of light. Thanks for the care! 💖🌷🙏🥰
You are a strong fierce woman. Such power is indeed in every Women’s lives. Thank you for your continuous efforts to keep us motivated
I am always blessed by your words and kind heart. Yes, we are powerful beyond measure.
Thanks for your precious time. You are most welcome❤️💖🙏🌷
My greatest pleasure
Oh, it’s painful but loving. Don’t know what to say only want to pray🙏🙏 Good to know more about Ram Dass..you always amazed your readers with something special. 🥰💕
Thanks so much Rosida!
You are such a beautiful young woman with a beautiful heart. Glad you enjoyed my morning share! ❤️🌷🙏 Thanks for the prayers 🙏
My most pleasure and thanks a lot for your so kind words.🌹💞😇
All the power to you Cindy!❤
Thanks Nawaz! 💖 Power to you too!🌷
Dear Cindy, I just love your beautiful story! Thank you!
Thank you so much Joanna!
Cindy, you just broke my heart and put it back together again with that story! 💔 ❤️ I think you are an Angel walking the earth to help people in need like this dear lady 🙏 so many people get pushed aside in their hour of need and you were there to make sure this didn’t happen to Alice! Happy International Women’s Day to you, you very special woman 😊
Awww glad you enjoyed the read Ingrid and your heart is back together again as you are such a powerful beautiful woman. Thank you for always supporting me with your kind words. Yes, this is so true in life and I feel blessed that I could be there. Thank you for the kind wishes and your support always. Happy International woman Day to you too! 💖💖🌷🙏
Oh Cindy… my eyes leaked as I read this sweet, sweet story. You were her Angel on earth to walk her home. Thank you so much for sharing! 💕💕💕
I searched forever to find a picture of us in bed or someone in bed and I kept seeing your face with your beautiful mother.
You’re so welcome and thanks for reading it as well! 💖🌷
What a painful & heartfelt post, dear Cindy ❤️ ✨
Thank you so much Dear Navin! So good to hear from you! I think of you often! Sending love 💖
You’re welcome, dear Cindy….thanks for your kindness & having me in your thoughts 🙏✨
You’re so welcome, it’s my honor and await your poetic return~!💖
Cindy, this post made me cry. For so many beautiful reasons it spoke to me. What a precious soul and friend you had and her memories are a spark and light in you. I’m very familiar with Ram Dass and his books and work. Eckhart Tolle helped me learn to be in “the present”. I love the spirit in others. And I’m so open to the many many ways God is present in our world and us. Keep on being you my friend. You’re a light! 💚💚💚
Oh K, It’s so good to hear that this spoke so much to you. She indeed was and it is such a gift to be there to help someone cross over. I just listened to Ram Dass and Eckhart Tolle do a YouTube talk together when researching this as there message is so similar. It’s a little hard to listen to Ram Dass with his stroke but his essence shines through. I am soooo with you K. We are light and together we shine! Happy to share our world here and light in W.P. 🤗🙏🌷
💚💛❤️ me too!
A beautiful story Cindy. It speaks to your being a beautiful soul. –Curt
Thank you so much Curt! Very Kind! 🌷💖
That’s a lovely tribute, Cindy 😊🙏😊
Thank you so much Sean! 💖
Happy woman’s day, sweetheart.❤️
Oh thanks so much Laleh and to you ! 💖
What a beautiful story, Cindy! <3 Very heartfelt. Thank you for sharing this. <3
Thank you so much Cheryl and thanks for stopping in and your continued support and sharing,. ❤️💖
What a story of connection, kindness and love for the human spirit that connects all of us. What a kindred relationship you were both able to share, the picture speaks a thousand words about the bond between you both. How very endearing and lovely. You celebrated your special friend here which is so beautiful Cindy. What a blessing!
I also love the work of Ram Dass and how his teaching and life experience have touched millions, including my own. Wonderful post to kick off the week my dear❤🎆🙌🌠😊
Thank you so much Maria. Wild I hadn’t been thinking of International Woman’s Day but subliminally got the message. I’m so glad to have featured Alice who exemplified a woman of strength and power in her day. Yes, the connection and bond we all share is truly a blessing and I feel so honored to have shared this window in time in her life.
I figured you knew Ram Dass. His teachings are of grace and heart like I have found in you.
Thanks dearest. So glad it spoke to you! 💖
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and a true story!
Thank you Johnnie. It is near and dear to my heart! 💖
I do see that! Praise God for YOU! <3 <3 <3 <3
Awww thanks for noticing! 💖
<3 MAYBE I SHOULD INVITE YOU…TO MY FACEBOOK CHAT WINDOW! AS USUAL, I SET IT UP BEFORE RUELHA SAID YES…OR ANYTHING! I HAVE THE LINK HERE SOMEWHERE…IF YOU ARE INTERESTED?
I’ll have to try again to access it! 💖
I shut it down earlier today—Ruelha had no time for it. And I guess that was my final straw. Dad was hurt. Better now—I bawled a while and put my experience and feelings into poems and came back to my senses. And took a nap. WHEN-? i CAN SET THINGS BACK up , comb my hair and send you the link in minutes. Or not—you decide,
Oh now I know why I couldn’t get through. That makes sense!
She’s young Johnnie and trying to make her way but it doesn’t mean that it hurts any less. Kids break our hearts not because they mean to but because they have to so they can break away and establish their own independence. I’m glad you took good care of yourself and gave yourself the time to cry, write, sleep and comb your hair. My kids are all amazing but if I could tell you the amount of times they leave me hanging high and dry and don’t return my call, you would know you were among good company. Keep taking good care. I will get back to you at some point when the link goes back up (lmk). I’ve got more clients for the rest of the day. Big Hugs and Love, 💖🌷🥰
THANKS! IT’S GOOD TO FIND SOMEONE TAKING ME SERIOUSLY AND UNDERSTANDING! <3 i AM SAYUNG,,,I'LL PUT UP THE LINK ABD SET UP MY SETUP JUST FOR YOU, AT YOUR CONVENIENCE!
You’re so welcome!!!!! I’m glad you feel that way!
Just being understood makes such a difference so I hope it helped.
Oh good I’ll look for it! 💖
WHAT WILL YOU LOOK FOR?
https://msngr.com/dzlyxbnuqpiu GOT TIME TO TALK?
sorry, long day and night… now I do?
Got any time tonight or tomorrow?
won’t be done with my client load until 7 tonight but a few holes tomorrow.. I’ll check your FB 🥰
TTHEN…O’D BETTER GET THINGS UP AND RUNNING TOMORROW—ANY PARTICULAR TIME PERIODS OF HIGHER PROBABILITY?
but don’t know what to do with that link?
I tried.. I’n the worst! 💖
OH I’M NEW AT THIS…COPY IT ONTO YOUR FACEBOOK PAGE—?
I’ll look again later tonight! 💖🤗
SOUNDS LIKE I’M TOO LATE NOW!
long days and nights lately but I looked💖
SO—I POT IT UP—AND LEAVE IT OPEN FOR WHOEVER…AND STAY NEARBY IN CASE SOMEBODY SHOWS UP?
I accepted your FB request is that what you mean?
I THINK SO. Y’M WALKING BLIND HERE. SOO—I’LL GO PUT IT UP AGAIN. 😀
the blind leading the blind.. 🤣
SHE’S IN HER QUIET PERIOD…AND I MISS HER!
oh yes, I understand! 💖
THANK YOU! “D
You’re soooo welcome! 💖
You’re welcome and especially for you…. you might come up close and personal to one. 🤣🤣 Thanks friend. Happy day! 💖
IN OTTHER WORDS////.OVE MY WIFE AND FORGET ALL THIS OTHER FOOLISHNESS—IS THAT WHAT YUOU;RE SAYING?
That’s sounds like a great idea and love you more! 💖💖💖🤗
❤️💖🤗 hugs and love!
Right back at ya! <3
Got the love and feeling it! 💖 thanks!
maybe you can DM me
see other comment–just tell me when—i shut it down after discussion with Rue, who didn’t have any time at all for it.
So precious Cindy….what a time you had with her and what sweet emotional memories you have. Love hurts when it is taken from us but what would we do without it?
It’s soooo true and the memories are always with me as well as some of her precious things that bless and charm my house. Life certainly does hurt but always brings solace to our hearts when we have gone the distance. Thank you so much for your kind heart and Happy Woman’s Day! 💖
This is so beautiful and heartfelt. Thanks for sharing❤️
Oh thank you so much Angela. That means a lot to me that you took time in your busy day to read this and comment. You’re welcome and thank you! 💖
What a beautiful story, Cindy. So much love, compassion, and hope. Touched me deeply. ❤️❤️❤️
Oh thanks so much Jeff. I’m truly glad it touched you and could feel the love and essence of the story of my dear friend! 💖
Welcome, Cindy. Indeed, I did. ❤
Thansk so! 💖
This is bittersweet. You’ve left me speechless. Such hauntingly beautiful lines. Touched me deeply. All the power to you!
Oh, thanks Akshita. it truly becomes a sacred gift of my soul when I get to be part of peoples lives in such a profound way! 💖Thanks for your kind support always Akshita! Power to you too and happy woman’s day! ❤️
Its always my pleasure 😊
And happy women’s day to you as well❤
Touched by your words.
Thanks so much! 🤗🌷🙏
Yes, I can still feel your pain. but also true friends words💗
Thank you! It is more the latter for me true friends and the love that holds us all together! Thanks for your kind commmet and visit! ❤️
My heart feels heavy after reading your post…..sending you lots of love and hugs, Cindy❤️
Oh I’m sorry to leave you in a heavy hearted place. Please know the gifts are always with me and I hold every ounce of her soul sacredly and warmly and they happily live inside. Thank for the love and hugs and back at you to Nathi! 💖
There are people in life that leave indelible imprint in our hearts.
This post touched my heart.
Thank you so much Drew for your kind visit and heartfelt words! 💖💖🤗🌷
Cindy, this post touched my heart profoundly. I shed tears and then I smile. You are the Queen of the souls. Sending love.
oh thank you so much for your soulful comment Gabriella. I’m truly happy it touched you so deeply. Thank you for taking time to read it and your heart. I always am touched by your words.
Thanks for the love and to you! 💖🌷
My pleasure Cindy. You are great. You inspire us and you radiate love.
Cindy, what a lovely tribute to your special friend .she sounds like an amazing woman so glad you were able to share so much love and admiration with her. It is so special for the person making their transition and also such a gift to be with the person at that time to witness a peace that surpasses all understanding. I think it helps to obliterate our own fear of leaving this earthly body.as you so aptly know “the gift is in the giving “.thank you for sharing your beautiful heart ❤️
Thank you so much for you beautiful and wise comment Marlene. Yes, the gift is in the giving and what is left behind is a jewel that is deep in our soul that always shines. It was a very mutual and special exchange we shared and I am forever grateful!
You’re so welcome and thank you for your time and sharing yours! ❤️💖
It’s a wonderful thing that the two of you have found each other, Cindy. And hopefully you’ll find each other again. 🌸
Oh that is so sweet VVN!
Thank you soooo much for your kind comment!
I think when we love, we can never be separate acutally and we live on in each other’s souls.
That’s true as well. 💖💖💖
💖💖🤗 Happy Day or night!
Now that’s a beautiful and touching story. I chucked and smiled through the story imagining Alice being a bit spunky. Even in the end, her wit and charm came through about the cheesecake. On the other hand, your actions throughout the story also touched me. Well done, Cindy …. and thanks for sharing.
I’m really glad you enjoyed the story of Alice and got a chuckle Frank! You so got her right and her very fiesty spirit and heart. I’m always appreciative of your very kind visit and support. You’re welcome me thank you as well for the gift of your time and heart!
It’s painful to not feel the presence that once was so close to you. I can understand and know how it must fee losing someone so close to the heart Cindy. Maybe she’s in a better place. 😇
So beautifully written ❤️
Thank you so much! 💖
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Thanks Dear Chuck! 💖🤗
Always a joy and pleasure to read and share your posts with followers, Cindy! Have a great day!! xoxox 😘💕🎁🌹
What a very touching and heartfelt story. Your care and compassion is very special and i am sure appreciated by all you touch!
This was such a touching post. Some people truly leave a mark on your life.
This is beautiful.
Thanks so much K!
So much appreciate hearing from you! 💖
Touching is right, Cindy. I was on the verge of tears reading your words about this lovely soul. What a difference you made in each others’ lives. Blessings to you, my friend. 🌞
Oh so glad you enjoyed it!!!!
Awwwww it was quiet a profound experience and I’m glad you got the essence. Love and hugs dearest!💖🌷🤗
Such a poignant story, Cindy. I have tears in my eyes reading it. Such love and devotion. I can see that your friend was such a force. How lovely.
Awwww, so glad you were move by it and enjoyed it Marsha! She truly was… thanks dear Marsha! 💖
Thanks for posting. 🙂
Aw..Cindy, this is just so heartfelt; it’s that kind of sad beauty that leaves you thinking and grateful for all the kind souls out there. Thank you so much for sharing! ❤️❤️
I so much agree D! Both sadness and beauty opens us to love and our hearts. Holding space for all feelings connects us to all souls true essence. Thanks for reading. Your support is appreciated! 💖
Absolutely! My pleasure!💖
Cindy, I am late to the game here, but what a lovely remembrance and picture of you two. The smiles tell it all. I think many will react well to how you remember her, as I did. Thanks for sharing this. All the best. Keith
Any time is the right time Keith and so glad it touched you. Thank you it is etched in my heart and mind. Smiles are so important in our day and letting people know we love how we feel.
Thank you so much for your kind visit today.
For some reason I thought I had commented on this but never did.
What a beautiful tribute! And beautiful post!
The only certainty we have in life is death. Ready or not, one day our time is up 🙁
Ram Dass is one of my favorites!
Wishing you a blessed weekend! ♥♥
Hi Ana Star,
You have that so right and I’m so glad you enjoyed it! Until that time, we will enjoy the moments we have for better or worse and enjoy our connection we share. He was a great teacher.
Thanks and you have a great one too! 💖💖💖
Don’t make me emotional again. Thanks
I love to hear you cry! 💖🤗😺🥰
I enjoyed this Thank you for sharing your experience you had with Alice you guys relationship was beautiful.
You’re welcome and thanks for reading💖💖