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Unique Times

Where I share my jewels of wisdom of life

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My heart bleeds buckets 
as I continue to walk the mountains and think of you
I carry 2 buckets  up the hill… 1 for me  and 1 for you

I stop to do what I can 
some ready for the offering
others lost or there for the taking

I continue to walk 
wishing I could do more 
but more is never enough

I carry your blood and then more of mine
I pass a wishing well and throw a penny and a blessing
My longing never stops

While I may appear stoic
it’s true ….
If I stop I would be devoid of life…. so I walk 

I pause to for a glimmer of hope but move on to
who might need a hand. 
Love is sometimes walking away even when your blood bleeds black

Copyright © Cindy Georgakas
All Rights Reserved

I wrote this poem as I was walking up the mountain the other day and thinking about my brother who has lived with schizoid affective disorder for most of his life and is in a psychotic state as I write this. He left his facility and took to the streets last year when Covid started and 4 months later he was able to find housing in a board and care facility with others that suffer from mental illness. He left his next one again on the 4th of July. My heart aches for him and my mother and his adult children; 2 of which have mental health issues as well. One of my nephews is 34 and has lived in a facility for 12 -14 years. My other nephew, 32, lives on the street in Southern California with his mother. Luckily my niece who is the youngest has broken away (kudos to you ) and is working and going to school and left the area but suffers from PTSD.

It is truly heartbreaking to witness and see someone you love live this nightmare and to feel so helpless. I have learned over the years that my own mental health suffers when I get over involved. I have also learned to love from a distance with boundaries which constantly pulls at my heartstrings but is necessary for my well being.

It is particularly difficult being in my field where I help people discover their truths and inner wisdom so I feel particularly helpless. My heart goes out to any of you that suffer from this horrific illness personally or have family members that do. I truly get it and my heart bleeds with yours. Take good care of you, do what you can and know your limits❣️

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Thanks so much for visiting today. The world needs us to take such good care of ourselves that we might be a beacon of hope for others. Loving without judgement or attachment is one of the greatest challenges.

Blessings of love to you and all of those you love and a special prayer of protection for my brother.

Thanks from the bottom of my heart,

💖🙏

Cindy

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Rupali
6 months ago

A beautiful poem.

michnavs
6 months ago

“I have also learned to love from a distance with boundaries which constantly pulls at my heartstrings but is necessary for my well being.” … this is so true Cindy, sometimes we have to accept the situation and love from a distance, in this way, can also protect our own well being. It’s not being selfish though, it is a must. thank you for writing this and sharing your brother’s story, as many seemed to condemn those who chose to take care of their own well being first.

Deepak Sharma
6 months ago

Every word in the poem reflect the deep emotional connect you two shared. The connect after the poem was enough to make anyone teary eyed!!

Deepak Sharma
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Speaks volumes of how we invest so much in our relationships, great to know abt your special bond with your brother. Stay blessed!

roughwighting
6 months ago

You show how painful it is to walk away despite buckets of love. I think the hardest lesson for all of us is to know that we have to walk away to take care of our own health. I have a friend whose son-in-law is suffering from the same affliction. It challenges and hurts the entire family. Thanks for bringing it up front here to all of us. Blessed wishes for your brother.

Sep
Sep
6 months ago

Beautiful poem Cindy! All the prayers for your brother and his family.

Chris Adedoyin
6 months ago

Your poem is excellent! Life is full of challenges. It is scriptural to be challenged; it is unscriptural to be defeated. With God, all things are possible🙂

Chris Adedoyin
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

You are welcome.

Navin
6 months ago

❤️

Lisa at Micro of the Macro
6 months ago

Reading your words put a big lump in my throat, Cindy. I am empathic for you and your family. That kind of thing is not easy for any of you. Much love & big hugs to you. 🌞🙏💕😘

Jeff Flesch
6 months ago

Ah, I love that, Cindy. Heart delivered, and I wrote….exactly so. Thank you, my friend. As yours and you are to me. ❤️❤️❤️

House of Heart
6 months ago

Cindy there’s so much pain in the world. This really struck a chord and I’m sure it dies with many. Sending prayers for you and yours!
❤️

House of Heart
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

❤️🌹🤗

House of Heart
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

❤️🌟🌺🌼❤️

House of Heart
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

♥️

Gibberish
6 months ago

This is such a beautiful, heartfelt poem…must be challenging to care so deeply for someone from far….big hug 🤗❤️

Shrubaboti
6 months ago

You have the right to keep the boundaries and take care of yourself. You are your own priority, especially when you have other people depending on you. Nothing should make you feel guilty or less supportive for taking care of your own mental health. You know you’re doing the best and that’s all that matters. Hugs 💜

Shrubaboti
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Yes, I understand. 💜💜🥰

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6 months ago

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J.D.
6 months ago

I understand where you are at all too well. My father had schizophrenia and I’ve been in a couple of relationships with men who have less severe but still very challenging mental illnesses, bipolar, ptsd. Walking away is incredibly difficult but also the kindest thing you can do, both for ourselves and for them. Enabling and allowing others to bleed us dry helps no one. Warmest wishes to you.

Yumarlin Chetty
6 months ago

That is the most beautifully written work I have read on the subject. The raw emotion of it all reminds one of how deeply walking away does cut us emotionally.

A Star on the Forehead
6 months ago

Hi Cindy,
My heart breaks for your brother and his family. May they find and accept help. May they find peace.
My heart breaks for you also. I can only imagine having to watch their pain and suffering without being able to help.
May you have the strength to continue to love from afar, and may you feel less powerless in the knowledge that sometimes the only thing we can do is send prayers.
Blessings to all! ♥♥

Jeff Flesch
6 months ago

You’re welcome, Cindy, always. Thank you. I appreciate you too, my dear friend. xoxo❤❤

Prior...
6 months ago

hello – so sorry for anyone who has mental illness and your poems and post really highlighted the way we need to watch involvement and sometimes love at a distance

Prior...
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

☀️☀️☀️

Samreen Asad
6 months ago

Very heart touching poem Cindy❤️ So sorry to hear about him. May God protect your brother, ease his and his family’s sufferings and give you all strength. Life is very harsh sometimes, you just watch thing’s happen as a mere spectator but hardly can do anything about it. It is this time that you should leave everything to God. Prayers for your family dear!! ❤️🤗❤️

Samreen Asad
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

🥰❤️🤗🌹😘🌻💖❤️🥰

Samreen Asad
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

🥰❤️🌹💖😍

joevic Africa
6 months ago

Absolutely.

Padma Srivastava
6 months ago

You have expressed your love and pain for the situation you’re going through. Heart touching.💔

cyberconnectng
cyberconnectng
6 months ago

This is lovely. Keep it up.

Samridhi Fagnia
6 months ago

You write awesome..fan😘🥺

AmakaTV
6 months ago

This is incredibly creative

AmakaTV
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Ofcourse ❤️

rothpoetry
6 months ago

This is a beautiful, but heartbreaking poem Cindy. Your family trauma is so difficult to find workable solutions that will help the situations. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing this with us.
Dwight

rothpoetry
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

You are welcome Cindy.

Jaya Avendel
6 months ago

I am touched and torn by the powerful journey represented in your words. I cannot live the lives of those who are suffering but I can experience their pain and sympathize through your words. This line sums up the path for me: “Love is sometimes walking away even when your blood bleeds black.”

Hannah Smelter
6 months ago

This is a very strong poem. I can’t necessarily relate to your situation, but I hope you and your brother are doing okay🙏💗

Seven Art & Science
6 months ago

You just touched my heart. Thank you for this

m3l0dicverse
6 months ago

“I carry your blood and more of mine”, that line is just wonderful, honestly

m3l0dicverse
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

You’re welcome 😊, I wont be so lost soon now that my health is improving. I become a ghost when I get wildly sick lol. I hope youre doing amazing 💜

m3l0dicverse
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Lol na I don’t really ghost anyone. I go ghost, yea, but I never really hear from others as a dude with no friends and family while dealing with cancer related issues lmao, so I separate myself from the world for some time till im not mad at it anymore.

m3l0dicverse
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
5 months ago

I am sorry for how I said what I said btw. And thank you, it means a lot to be part of anything. I’m honestly working hard to keep myself physically healthy, so dealing with it hasn’t been so rough, thank god. It’s my toughest period in life in terms of everything else and being already a shy person (lol), the shyness doubles up and have a harder time talking to anyone anywhere. But i’m blessed to have a place like this and others like you around, it really means a lot <3<3

m3l0dicverse
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
5 months ago

Definitely, I let the bottle in my chest fill up too much and it just shattered in different ways. Honestly, I have my rough days with my body, but I know that there are others who have it way worse. I’m blessed to have this platform and others like you within it! I just wish other people in the same position had the same or at least someone to motivate them to do so. Best thing in life is connecting with people! Major reason why I was able to quit drinking when I needed to. So, thank you for being a beautiful soul <3<3<3!

m3l0dicverse
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
5 months ago

I did! I just replied to it actually. I always receive your messages, so no need to worry :). I hope your day is as wonderful as sunshine <3

Shalini
6 months ago

Sometimes it’s heartbreaking to not get involved and watch from a distance. Have experienced a similar tangent with my brother, and since over involvement threatened my peace of mind, I chose quiet and prayers from a distance. Your writing resonates a lot. It’s beautiful.

Shalini
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

😊 Sending prayers and best wishes.

Marsha
6 months ago

What a tragic story, Cindy. That must be hard, not just to live with but even to talk about. I’m so sorry about your family and all those suffering with mental health issues, especially those who are homeless. Your brother and his family are in my prayers right now. There is nothing I can do to help out except that. It’s an issue that concerns us all and is so big that it’s overwhelming even to think about.

Marsha
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

xxxxx

Marsha
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Awww

Karthigeyan
6 months ago

Beautiful crafted poem, Cindy 🙏. I’m so sorry to hear about your brother. Sometimes things are beyond our control and best way to go about it is to restrain from thinking about it. I know it is easier said than done. But I can already see how well you are detaching yourself from things you can do so little to change for the better.
Take care of yourself, Cindy 🤗

Karthigeyan
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Yes, Cindy. The most important asset as you know is health. And it’s our duty take care of ourselves first to take care of anyone around us. I’m glad that you are setting it a priority. Yes, I’m doing well too. Thank you for your kind words as always 🙂

Karthigeyan
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

I have tried to take care of myself more, but as you said, I spend more time caring for others than myself. It is an arduous switch, I am slowing learning to implement that change. As always, “Change is the only constant”

Karthigeyan
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Yes, it is a slow process. That’s a nice way to think about it, Cindy. Thank you so much 🙂 So much to learn from you!

mark author
6 months ago

I love the way you wrote this 🥰🥰

mark author
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

You’re welcome 🥰 is my pleasure to do this to you 💖💖
Can I know more about you ✍️
💖💖💖

Pooja G
6 months ago

I am so sorry about your brother and his family. Can’t even imagine how difficult it must be to be in your shoes. It’s hard to see someone we love in pain.

Andy Lian
6 months ago

I did not expect the story behind the poem, I wish you all the best and you wrote a beautiful piece!

I hear u
6 months ago

Nice content. I also had wrote on SOME(Some, Of, My, Emotions.)

I hear u
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

no

I hear u
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

ok. My pleasure.

I hear u
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Sleep tight

I hear u
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Thank you so much.

I hear u
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Have a good day.

I hear u
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

thanks

Kritika
6 months ago

Can feel the sad side of the poem. 🙁

Kritika
Reply to  Kritika
6 months ago

Sorry for your brother. Lots of positivity your way.

Kritika
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

(heart)

jonicaggiano
6 months ago

Thank you for your beautiful poem and your gigantic heart Cindy. I have a sister who is bi-polar and it is no surprise given the abuse she grew up with but her life is nuts. I too have had to distance myself both physically and only talk to her at rare times. However, like you I pray for her and I love her, but I realized early on that if I did not set boundaries I would be reliving my childhood every hour of the day and I can’t do that to myself. I said a prayer for your loved one and I know it was heard. God bless you sweetheart. I am sorry, please allow yourself to rest. Love you, Joni

jonicaggiano
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

You are such a blessing. We have so much in common. I am glad you are getting some rest. Working on the Anthology was a wonderful thing you and Navin did but very stressful. Yes I have learned to take care of myself. Love you sweetie. Please don’t worry I will not be going anywhere and I certainly would never forget you. Love ❤️ Joni

jonicaggiano
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Love you bundles my dear Cindy my friend from not so far away. That will not change. Two people I really care about and loved their talent got burnt out and just stopped. I don’t want that to happen to you. I love your glow and light. ❤️🤗😘🌹🦋

jonicaggiano
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Love you too Cindy you light up everyone’s life. ❤️🤗😘🌸love Joni

jonicaggiano
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

❤️🤗💕🦋🙏🙏

amiiryahye
6 months ago

Life is experience

abenaakomeah
6 months ago

Lovely

roshiiblog
6 months ago

Beautifully nurtured ❤️

Angshita D.
6 months ago

“I pause to for a glimmer of hope but move on to
who might need a hand. 
Love is sometimes walking away even when your blood bleeds black”.
We are in a world where we learn to hold on to things. We create this habit from early childhood, like holding onto to books, clothes etc. The habit of holding on harmless till a point. Sometimes you need to prioritize yourself and for the sake of your own sanity, you need to “walk away”
There is still a social stigma around divorce , we at wordskraft have great blog on this topic where we discuss why walking away is a solution to life-long problems. We would be glad if you would read it and let us know your opinion on this topic.
https://wordskraft.com/2020/02/22/divorces-are-branded-as-a-problem-but-arent-divorces-a-solution-to-the-problem/
#MyWordsKraft

sanjay ranout
6 months ago

How words can really move hearts,, how they can make humans to really feel the emotions ,,,
As much Deeper they can touch,, I felt it piercing deep to the depths,

sanjay ranout
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

Thanks madam, have a nice weekend too😊

Scarlett
6 months ago

Sending love ❤️

Sarah Bragais
6 months ago

I feel you. I hope they get better. ❤

parneetsachdev
6 months ago

I really liked the thought and the theme of this poem. You write really well. a gifted poet

parneetsachdev
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

😊

mysteriousalien2
6 months ago

Love the poem so much 😍 Sending you lots of love and blessings 💖💖

Kimberlee Robinson
6 months ago

Beautiful post!!

macacca
6 months ago

Hello! My sister suffers the same. My parents are lame. I’m 22 and too week to locate her to a place she might have similar people like her. I’m seeking advises.

macacca
Reply to  Cindy Georgakas
6 months ago

It’s really tough. Some past days I was even guilty for laughing around mates.
But now I know, my parents are happier seeing me laugh. Thank you. Take care