Eyes riveted on the road in admiration of the majestic mountains. Gray brown giants, shimmer in all their splendor. I hold the wheel in awe of the magnitude and beauty of the moment, rounding the bend, with a grateful heart. The breeze through my window, whispers hope for a peaceful day.
All is well in my world as I breath in angelic grace. My hands gently on the wheel begin to grip, unable to turn it. Sweat beads up as I try to straighten the car and decelerate, cascading over the nearby waterfalls falling midair, tumbling off the road to the very majestic scene, I was just admiring.
My mind is clear with no fear but why? Is this how my life should end? Amongst the jagged rocks, I become? The tires bounce off each boulder and we flip and skid with trepidation. I think “is this is the end of the line for me?” I’m dying as no one makes it out alive on this hi-way. It’s a steep ravine that I ride waiting for my fate to be revealed.
I have no pain, a little stunned as I watch the scene unfold vividly, eyes wide open. I crash hitting bottom of the ravine, still pain free. It’s not my day to die. I crawl out of my totaled car and make my way around the bluff and a couple of my kids find me, not particularly worried, nor am I. Is this the beginning or the end of a fateful day, grateful and blessed by divinity?
Dreams throw me to the wind tarnished and worn.
Deep dives, skinned knees, heart racing, pondering.
My unconscious mind sends warning signs,
while my conscious mind questions.
The fears hide beneath the dark sky, only illuminated in slumber.
What do you want from me?
What are you trying to say? Should I be worried?
Will I crash and burn or is a part of me dying and I don’t want to know?
I sit in the puddle of this feeble mind, lost beyond any reasonable doubt. Waiting is not my strong suit but I’ve no other choice except to wait until the wax wanes and clarity is restored.
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This was literally my dream the other night. I have been having vivid dreams and remembering them play by play. I never in all of my life had a dream where I haven’t woken up from a near death experience where I was at risk in anyway. This is mind boggling to me as I have had nightmares of being chased and near killed etc but I always wake up mid stream or the dream ends. I wasn’t scared at all either but now I’m trying to make sense of it.
I am so curious if any of you have had a dream where you have gone through the tragedy and witnessed it first hand without being rescued or woken up from it?
There are many dream therapists that offer insights, especially in Jungian Therapy. Here is an interesting take from Jungian therapists if you are interested. While hearing from professionals offers insight, I firmly believe we are the best interpreters of our dreams and are given messages to pay attention to of things we are working out in our lives. Dreams allow us to do just that and provide insights and meaning.
Unconsciously, car crashes mean there is something that needs to get your attention before you crash and burn or you are driving yourself too hard and need to take heed or you are letting go of an aspect of yourself. It may be that someone in your life is dying.
Well, we all know I have a lot on my plate so there is that and I’ve been slowing down with phase 2 of the remodel behind me but somethings things happen to me like this after big projects, where I can finally let go. It’s as though the body and psyche say, “ok you are out of the fire and can relax but it takes awhile for everything to catch up with the other parts of yourself”.
When I woke up after the crash I called my cousin to see if my aunt had taken her last breath and crossed over and he said “she is tough and holding on”. She passed the next day. My FIL has also been in the hospital and I’ve been working with him a bit as well and It’s sad to watch those you love leave this world fast or slow, even when you know it’s right, I do have some big changes happening that I’m not privy to talk about yet, but will when I can. I am still processing all of this but I’d love to know if you have had similar dreams and what they meant to you if so?
The night before my cat, Ollie, kept me up all night and I was finally having a great dream. Yesterday, I made sure to keep her awake and played with her to assure a goodnight sleep baring any crashes. I’m happy to report, I slept great.
Alrighty, I’m going to do a little meditation before bed and hope for sweet dreams. Have a great night or wonderful day ahead, wherever this finds you on the globe.
Sweet Dreams or a wonderful day ahead,
And this little dickens Ollie says: What’s the problem? Live like me! I have 9 lives after all❣️ Hahahaha