Winds blow Uncertainty Cleansing aching hearts The sun hides behind the fog Waiting patiently to burn off
In the distant horizon ships pass by Planes fly high Birds sing while vultures circle Waiting to be fed
Life is fragile Struggling to find words Dialing the phone Nobody’s home I just called to say goodbye
The whistle blows Tears flow back to the ocean The fog burns off And the sun glows
We return again and again Rainbows bring hope to despair Everlasting light Wind blows uncertainty
Let’s not say Goodbye! Until we meet again…. Farewell my friend
This comes at a time where we struggle with our sweet dog Harry. Some of you have been so kind to share Harry’s journey with us. He’s dependent on our every need, still eating happily and sleeping between us an night. He has no use of his front legs now either. I pray for miracles and work on him but the time is nearing. Some days his needs are greater than we can bear because he’s dependent on us for his every movement and it’s challenging. It’s a lot like having a newborn and trying to figure out what they need but you know they will grow up and leave the nest and fly. In this case we know we will have to say goodbye. Every time we decide it’s time to send him off to The Rainbow Bridge, he eats another meal and looks at us with those big brown eyes and we just can’t do it. We’re heading out for a hike now and pushing him in the stroller to get some fresh air.
Covid numbers are increasing here in California with a record high of 779 deaths on Friday.
We were watching the news last night and heard Larry King, the Brooklyn-bred man who became cable TV’s most well-known talk show host, died. He was 87.
Over the course of more than five decades in radio and TV broadcasting, half of it spent hosting CNN’s “Larry King Live,” King mingled with the famous and infamous and average people who became either. We watched his shows and had no idea of his colorful life at the time but loved his great interviews.
By his count, he interviewed more than 60,000 subjects, and when his run on cable ended in 2010, he segued to the internet with “Larry King Now,” a daily talk show on Hulu from Ora TV, and became an active presence on Twitter.
Larry’s last words were “Let’s not say Goodbye but rather, Until We Meet Again, Farwell”.
Life is short; days may seem long or fly by and it’s definitely uncertain. Pick up the phone and let someone you know you’re thinking of them, email or send a card. There is nothing like old snail mail. Love yourself and love others, life is fleeting.
Thanks so much for reading today, liking (if you do of course), commenting and or sharing.
Always love and light as you travel through your day!
Thank you so much once again to Jason Gotlib for his spectacular photo and his beautiful hopeful quote.
In celebration, light, love, hope, unity, blessings, prayers for all of us; no matter what color our skin, religious beliefs, gender, sexual preference or age. Thanks so much reading and liking (if you do of course), commenting and or sharing!
Ok, I just had to say that once, because when I hear y’all say it, I love it and I feel young and hip. I always think “oh YAY, I may not be that young but I’m a leap year baby, which means I only have a birthday every 4 years, which makes me 16 and young at heart. If you do the math, don’t tell me, I like to live in a delusionary world. hahahahaha😜🤣
This would usually fall under a Fun Fri-Yay but I have a special surprise collaboration this Friday with one of your favorite bloggers and mine so be there or be square!!!
You may remember the bike debacle at Christmas. I sure do… lol. We celebrated with my son’s girlfriend, Kristal the week before and she was soooo excited when he surprised her with the bike. They went on a ride and she fell off because she didn’t have the right shoes that locked in. Thankfully she was ok! Here they are celebrating below. Isn’t she adorable?!!!! She’s as nice as she is pretty.
The next week we celebrated secret Santa where we pick names and buy a gift for whoever’s name you picked. Half the fun is trying to decide who has you.
The joke was on me. Why was I the only one that couldn’t see? They pulled the wool over my eyes. So much for being healthy wealthy and wise. Healthy I am, wealthy in spirit, 2 out of 3 ain’t bad, Thank you sonny boy “Gary”!
So Kristal was in on it the whole time when she pretended to be surprised the week before Xmas when he gave it to her, and then gave it to me on Christmas Day. So sweet of him! Scott, from the inspiredchief was right when he said: “Great Post Cindy. Maybe it will be a gift from Santa. Did you make the nice list this year”. Are you Santa or an elf Scott? I’m giving you my list next year. Apparently, I did make the nice list! 😅
Woo hoo! Now I actually have to ride it. 😜 Truth is, I would never go on a bike these days if it wasn’t for a chance to be with him.
Fitness Dice:
Check out these new fun fitness dice my daughter game me.
Roll the dice and let the fitness begin. Another fun way to get your workout in.
LOVE THESE!!!
Disk Golf:
So, I’m the trainer, the rest of my fam are jocks… yes all 5 of them. 😜 I’m not going to risk getting injured by putting myself at risk doing all of the things they do cuz it’s my livelyhood, so I play safe. That’s my excuse anyway. The truth is, they are so darn good at everything and I pale at their athletic ability, so I hide behind the “It’s my livleyhood story even though it’s smart to do so. The truth is, I’m really competive and I don’t want to loose. 🤣 It would wound my ego deeply. Lol. .
But I’m a good sport and my son will hike to appease me, but doesn’t love it so I agreed to play or beat to the tune of my own drummer as I ran the course, and and fumbled around playing disk golf with them.
Hunter had the best time… now if only I could teach him play frisbee. Here’s a couple of holes of a 15 hole Frisbe golf course.
Highland Springs Kelseyville, California
Stay Tuned for Heaven Meets Hell on Fri-Yay Funday. This is a personal invitation and I’m really excited to share it with you. He’s (that’s the only hint I’ll give) one of my favorite blogger and yours aside from us of course!!!
Have a great day and wonderful Thursday and can’t wait to see you then!
See you on Friday! Everyone who comes will have a direct line to Santa nee year…lol!
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If I am to be completely honest, I’m not feeling too fun at the moment. I have always been accused by my clients and most friends of being “too happy”. A dear client who transitioned at 86 used to say “OH NO, here comes Ms. Happy” when I showed up twice a week to put her through the exercise paces. The last thing she wanted to do with COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease) was see me and yet it was the high point in her day.
I think of her today and the many I have lost over the years ( B.C. before covid) that were so near and dear to my heart. Some of them who had weathered the storms of the ages and some not able to see their kids graduate and I know they would be turning over in their graves right now with the current state of affairs in our country,
I stay happy because I usually stay away from the news and don’t allow toxic informaion that I have no control over to invade my psyche. I energetically stay positive and send energy by tapping into divine truth that raises my level of counsousioness and recharges me so I can be a conduit for others to do the same. It does no good to go down the tubes when I know that healing is going on at it’s deepest level and cleansing out the toxity in a situation is vital, no matter how ugly it gets. We have a choice, we can align with the divine and be a vessle for light and love to enter through darkness or we can let it envelop us.
I was glued to the news inbetween clients and shaken like most people I know, as we watched the unfathomable of breaking into our capital and vandalizing sacred ground incited by our leaders. I’m not here to talk politics. This is a deep time of mourning no matter what you are for or against and violence and threatening our democracy no matter what, is deplorable and never ok. So, I guess you would say, I’m in shock and mourning.
I decided on January 1rst that I would write a quote everyday this year and at the end of the year, if I don’t have the book I’m workng on ready, I will have a book of meditative quotes from the year. I wrote this for next year.
Jan. 6th 2021
Let the music of silence fill your heart with stillness The lyrics might be out of tune and your ears might need to filter out The noises all around you Surrender and let go as you dance through your day in light and love.
It’s hard to ignore voices of the outside world especially in despicable acts of violence trying to drown out truth.
How do me maintain composure and honor and do what’s right, when every ounce of you wants to retaliate?
It’s not easy to be witness to the atrocities of the world, destruction, violence, greed, anger, racism, rape; whatever the case may be. Last year today it was an assault to our democracy in America. Wherever you live, who ever you are, you know the feeling of being a victim of unjust behavior. We have every right to feel sad, scared and angry and yet we must remember that truth prevails and light overshadows darkness.
Our own inner world and mind can be as damaging to ourselves as what happens in the outside world.
Close your eyes and breath and ignite the light so we together can collectively find peace amidst chaos and confusion. Breath in and breath out as you settle the restlessness in your bones, so you can be part of the solution not the problem.
Sing a song of joy and goodness as you ignite the light.
On a happy note, I ended up staying home while my husband and son headed to the lake last night so I could take care of my soul on a deep level and enjoy the stillness of the morning. I’ll head up later but in the meantime, the morning is heaven as it always is when the sun comes to greet the day and I’m cuddled in, nestled between the sheets with my beloved cats.
OllieCassian my daughters new kitty (He’s not here but too cute not to share)My beloved once feral Star
I’ll be wandering to the lake soon after meditaion and my morning ritual of writing and the fun will begin. However you find yourself, honor your feelings and heart and treat yourself well. Enjoy your weekend and find respite no matter what’s going on in your world. I’ll see you on Monday with some exercise tips and an interview that Yvette from Priorhouse did on me, in case you haven’t seen it yet.
And have fun. After all, it’s Friday Funday and someone has to do it, so it might as well be you.
Stay Blessed, be bold and know you are love.
❤️
Cindy
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Say goodbye to yesterday To make way for what’s to come Clean out the closet of our mind So we can dwell in possibility.
Say goodbye to yesterday The heartache and the loss We’ve made it through the craziness No mater what the cost.
Say goodbye to yesterday And thank it for the lessons We don’t have far too look They’re right in front of our noses.
Say goodbye to yesterday So we can move forward in faith And birth our souls yearnings While nourishing new beginnings.
Say goodbye to yesterday The toxic people in our lives The leaders that took us down a garden path To the graves of those we’ve lost.
Say good by to yesterday And make room for moments of today We think we know so much but if we’ve learned anything, It’s that life happens while we’re making other plans.
Say goodbye to yesterday And make your blessings count It’s in the moments you create Remember gratitude is attitude.
As we usher in the New Year it’s important to reflect on 2020 to release whatever emotions or patterns might be holding us back from moving forward.
Take some introspective time to reflect if you haven’t done so already and see what you need to let go of and what you want to birth this year in 2021.
While we are so ready to say goodbye to 2020, it seems we are a long way from where we were before the Pandemic started.
Eager to move on with a vaccine being slowly distributed but not there yet, and we must do our due diligence while moving into the year with the unknown. And we all know the unknown is one of the hardest places to hang out in.
This is my annual ritual I do in groups with clients or alone. Both are awesome. You could even call your support circle together outside or hold a Zoom meeting and do it together online. You could also do it with me below and turn the video on and off while you complete each step. It’s very powerful and I haven’t missed a year for 35 years and I started the tradition with my family as well.
New Years Burning Bowl with the Family
9 Easy Steps to Usher in the New Year and clear out the debris from 2020
Sit in meditation at your alter and light a candle, some incense, a flower and bell and root and ground for a few breathes or a long meditation. These 3 things reminds us of the impermanence of life as we know it.
Write down all the things you want to let go of from this past year on a piece of paper. This is your chance to get them all out of your body and mind and on to paper. Anything at all that has a hold on you. Ie: anxiety, anger, depression, jealousy, frustration, loneliness, hurt, resentment. It can go on and on and don’t stop until you have written each one down.
BURN IT! Yes, burn baby burn. Let it all go and feel it release far and away from you physically and metaphysically to create space inside for what you want to manifest in the New Year.
Write down what you are grateful for: I know this might be a tall order for some of you with loss and the challenge from last year but it is really important because Gratitude produces more abundance in your life.There are always things you can find even in the most dismal of times (yes, even in 2020).
And to think 2020 had such a good ring. Don’t judge a book by it’s cover…. what a lesson this was!
Write a letter to God, Source, the Divine, Your Higher Power affirming your wishes for 2021 thanking the powers that be. See my sample letter below from last year. I also might write some goals that I have with dates and a plan of action and add those to my calendar.
Pick 3 angel cards representing Past, Present and Future. This is optional but quite profound and fun to play with!
Stick it in an envelope, seal it and address it to yourself so you can mail it to yourself one week before the end of 2021 (write the day you will mail it to yourself in your calendar or you will forget).
Now, open your letter from last year. It’s amazing what you will find.
Past, Present, Future Healing with Angels Dorreen Virtue, P.H.D. deck
This year was like a surprise gift I could have never predicted.. If some things still haven’t come into fruition, you simply put them on your list for next year. In regards to my Angel Cards, I still have the same love transformed into more passion. I’m playing more and always have to be honest with my truth and integrity. I am curious about all of the cherubs in all 3 cards as this is rare. I have 4 children and had 1 miscarriage making 5. Does this mean I have grandchildren on the horizon? hmmmm…..I guess I’ll have to wait and see.
Remember to say Thank You!!!
Here’s are samples of what I wrote this year:
What do I want to release?
Impatience, frustration, perfection, fixation, being swept away, sitting so much, poor scheduling.
What I am grateful for:
My income only decreasing in half, clients that are so gracious, new definition of self, learning to do technology hard as it’s been, seeing clients on Zoom which has been awesome and more efficient in some ways, saving so much money by only spending money on essentials: Food and wine 🤣, learning how to structure my writing, my 1,000 followers to finish the year. Thanks again. My health, my yoga and Tai Chi practice, walking, strength training, sustaining my exercise routine, making videos, time with myself, effort, struggle and worry about income and just trusting, the beautiful clean air, starting my book and joining a writers workshop, doing some guest interviews, continuing even when I’m frustrated, help from some of you when I’m at the 9th hour and stuck, simple gatherings of everyone pitching in, letting go of messes in the house, amazing parents, kids, friends, pur word press family.
What I’ve learned about myself:
That I can stop driving myself to goals and trust the process, that I am capable of learning technology even though I have a difficult time with it, that I am resilient, that it’s ok to ask for help, I do much better with order and a schedule, it takes time to learn so it’s a double edge sword, to be gentle with myself, that I need to stop and eat and drink more water, that I love writing but hate sitting so much, that exercise, meditation and my yoga and Tai Chi are essential and imbedded in my genes at this point, I need to get up every hour and break, that interruptions of all of the animals is grating on my nerves, they teach me patience,
My letter From 2020:
Weird I started this right after my birthday Feb 29th on March 1st (late this year) before Covid
This was wild to read because all of this came into fruition this year without any thought that my life would shift. At the time I was seeing a full load of clients 4-6 a day. Covid was the gift of allowing me to create this new shift. Otherwise, I would have just kept plugging along in my familiar and expected patterns. Yes, it took a pandemic for me to ask what about me, what do I want? Ask any busy person to get something done because they will do that and more. Now I have limits on what I want to do and how much is actually good for me, which is so freeing.I’m not sure why I didn’t address my letter in my usual way with is usually Dear Father Mother God, Thank you for my blessings of……..
I also enclosed a second page this year which I never do. I also often write down exercise goals, etc. and put dates on them and add them to my calendar. Somewhere, I must have known there would be no schedule this year.
Here’s the second page I included. It was so unusual for me to do a semi poem or thoughts propelling me into writing without even knowing it. I thought I would spare you from my horrible writing this time. 🤣
Gathering, chirping, nesting Moving from limb to limb Leaping to new heights Swinging off branches Singing my song.
Listening closely to my heartbeat We all have a song waiting to be told And to share with the world Deep penetrating, dark open to shed light on wounds and cleanse Drinking in the nectar of life’s gifts.
Sharp fans spike shadows of light moving gracefully, gently and swiftly cutting through lies People have their ideas but they can’t define me All are mirrors to grow and learn from.
Happy New Year as you put into motion an attitude of gratitude so that no matter what happens to you next year, you can ride the current, go with the flow and find your dristi (focus) and bliss.
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If I buy you a diamond ring, silks and gold so you drip in jewels does that mean I love you more than if I give you an orange from my garden or write a poem from my soul and trace hearts on your body?
If I fly you to the moon and back and buy you a star in the galaxy, will you know how much I love you?
If I sit and hold your hand and chat about what you’re feeling to let you know I care would that be enough or would you wish you were Jupiter?
If you watch me flying off the trapeze doing circles in the air and land on my feet, would you not put me on a pedestal or think I’m crazy?
If I’m walking down the street and I fall on my face, would you pick me up and hold me and still think I amazing?
What will let you know much I really love you?
Do I have to turn myself inside out like a pretzel until I break so you know?
Would you eat me or let me be?
Do I have to give up me for you to know I love you?
I guess we’ll have to take that chance and see because no matter how much I care and love you, I just have to be me and so do you.
I hope whatever you do for the holiday season, you remember the meaning of the season and enjoy your time however you spend it. I know some of you are alone which is challenging but see if you can do something special just for you. Remeber even when others are with their families it can be challenging as well. Gifts given with heart and intention are the best ways to show your love whether it’s a hunk of a diamond, or a gift from your garden or heart.
“Of course I say, that’s how life is; change is the only thing there is”.
He shoots me a stare, a snarl and a shake of his head,
I look at him in disbelief.
Neither are right or wrong but change is inevitable; and he is right;
“I’ve changed”!
They say woman marry men, hoping they’ll change,
And men marry women, hoping they’ll never change.
Is it that woman went along more, when love was new?
Or is it that they finally found their voice and speak up more as they bloom?
I’ve always spoken my truth but was always busy pleasing others, never asking questions.
That’s what mothers, daughters and wives do.
Put off me to be there for you.
He loves watching sports (any sport on T.V.) or on the radio,
However, I could care less.
I would rather listen to quiet music, meditate, hike and write.
Men are easy; Give them a sandwich and sex and they’ll follow you anywhere.
Women want to talk.
Just ask my son. His first sentence was “Mom too many words”
I’ve done it all from work to birthing babies, having umpteen pets, traveled with the 6 of us all over the world, hosted lavish parties with all the decorations. Cooked great food and concocted amazing drinks and now I’m content to sit in the void while those spin around me.
I’ve changed, it’s true.
I love my peace and quiet.
Clean floors don’t interest me much, nor does shopping for material objects or having meaningless conversations.
Don’t get me wrong,
I love a clean house and delicious food, and drink,
I just don’t want to execute and do it anymore.
I’ve changed.
And you should know, so when you come home to visit, you’re not disappointed when your Christmas stockings are empty and there aren’t many boxes and I’m not cooking up a storm.
You’ll find me early in the morning in the moonlight writing, quiet as a mouse, dancing or singing and ready to play a game, take a hike or jump on the bike.
I’ve changed so I hope you enjoy the memory of the mother, friend, daughter, wife that you once knew and can appreciate who I am now. If you can’t, I understand.
I love you all no matter what, but it’s important you know;
I’ve changed.
And I’ll keep changing and so will you.
Maybe the mother you once knew will reemerge like the butterfly from the cocoon,
But who knows, I’ve changed.
Nothing is set in stone.
Besides, the best gift is time spent and memories made and shared, not material gifts.
When you visit my home, please write your message on a stone
This was writen before I experienced the complete shift with my adult children coming home for Thanksgiving in a way that I have never seen before. I suppose all of my warnings have paid off. As they are starting to pile in for the holidays, it is always a gift to my heart. Have a beautiful day. Thanks so much for visiting today and hope you enjoyed this and gave you permission to listen to your inner voice.
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I flutter from one bush to the other like the hummingbird not knowing which nectar to taste first and they all look good.
Not one looks better than the other in this mad rush to have it all. I’m dizzy, running around for the sweetness of each tiny taste not wanting to miss anything.
In the meantime I’m lost. I want it all. I don’t want to drop anything out but my belly has filled till explosion.
Pretty soon I’m drunk with the nectar and feel drugged and my senses have stopped asking for more but my body moves constantly, never pausing to enjoy the sweetness I have devoured.
For in the haste and busyness, I have lost touch with my inner message. But then as I pause to take a drink, my friend the eagle swoops down on me and we ride and soar.
Thanks so much for the visit today! Wishing you a beautiful day with time to savor moments and your souls yearnings. Please remember to like (if you do of course), share and or comment if you are inclined.
Blessings while you taste the sweetness today brings.
It’s Fri-Yay Funday and time to do something fun even if it’s turning up the music and dancing with your broom. Seriously, I actually do this or drag my cat or dog for a dance. 🤣 Turn up the music, kick up you heels and hit it. Yes, dance like no one is watching!
God, I Miss Robin Williams!
So, I looked up the definition of fun on Google because they know everything right?
WRONG!!!!!!!
But, it works for my post so I’m going with it.
You will find many more fun versions on other sites if you care to pull it up.
Fun is defined by the Oxford English Dictionary as “Light-hearted pleasure, enjoyment, … An 18th century meaning (still used in Orkney and Shetland) was ” cheat, trick, hoax”, a meaning still retained in the phrase “to make fun of”. The landlady …
DOES THAT SOUND LIKE FUN TO YOU?
NOT! Well, the light hearted pleasure, enjoyment is nice but cheat, trick, hoax… not so much!
Seeing red
Riding on my new red Specialized bike just in time for Christmas. It’s fire engine red just like my vintage Venus bike only loaded with all the bells and whistles; SCORE!
16 gears on the handles to get me up hills, A perfect fit, adjusted specifically to a tee for my weight and height.
It rides smoothly and shifting gears is a piece of cake. The wind is at my back, the sun shines on my face, a perfect replacement and my butt’s not sore.
My son took me to check it out on a Facebook add he saw. He made sure that it fit my body right, examined all its parts so sweet right?!!!!!
And then he said “Ok mom that’ll be 350.00 which was an amazing price for this 1,000 bike.| I happily handed over the money and he said “I think Kristal’s going to love this”.
WTF?!!!!!!!! Yes, I’m Seeing Red!
Good thing I love Kristal so much and for the record, he paid for the bike but I have to say, I was pretty excited for a minute.
Have a great Friday and weekend whatever you do! It doesn’t cost anything to laugh and will lift your spirits. Thanks as always for visiting, liking (if you do, of course), commenting and or sharing.
