It isn’t your fault, it just is
Stop and cut bait and DON’T even go there.
And realize it’s them, not you, and move on.
People are not always honorable.
Of course it takes 2 to tango, so look at the part you played so you can learn
It once and for all; utter the words…
This cord of confusion is a waste of time.
Easy to think, “Oh, I should have, could have, would have…”
No more dwelling and be
Thankful that you are moving in a healthier direction.
I continue to pick up the phone and hang up before dialing your number. I composed a text for the umpteenth time, and then deleted it before I hit send.
When I’ve reached out, I’ve been rejected.
Sometimes, I look for the trail that will once again lead to your heart, like Hansel and Gretel, following crumbs. Nonetheless, the path just breaks.
This compelling need inside swells up and cries, “If you would only respond to me, I could move on.” Only when I pick up my journal, guitar, or uke and write, can it be released.
However, a gapping hole inside me grows deeper, the problem becomes everyone else’s fault. My mind says “If they just loved me ” and saw me, I could release this constant preoccupation with them. Of course when we have an expectation that someone will save us, we have put the responsibility on them not ourselves to resolve our issue which never works.
When I get through my day living true to myself, not letting this thought or person have control of me, I feel empowered and yet still dissatisfied.
What in me needs the approval of someone else that I will chase him or her at the expense of myself? How long will I make something outside of me responsible for my well being, and feel victimized when they don’t meet my expectations, wasting my energy, just so I can be validated?
When did I stop validating myself and why?
When we constantly look for things, people and places outside of ourselves to fill us and validate who we are, we will always be empty.
Next time you pick up the phone or want to reach out to someone; call someone that has always been true to his or her word and honorable.
Notice, when they get back to you right away, how you feel and how you respond to yourself
We are aware that their instant response is evidence they care. However, when we feel low, with a poor sense of our value truthfully, we question our worthiness of someone to respond attentively.